Living by Faith: Part 1
I care not today what the morrow may bring,
If shadow or sunshine or rain,
The Lord I know ruleth o’er everything,
And all of my worries are vain.
Though tempests may blow and the storm clouds arise,
Obscuring the brightness of life,
I’m never alarmed at the overcast skies—
The Master looks on at the strife.
I know that He safely will carry me through,
No matter what evils betide;
Why should I then care though the tempest may blow,
If Jesus walks close to my side.
Our Lord will return for His loved ones someday,
Our troubles will then all be o’er;
The Master so gently will lead us away,
Beyond that blest heavenly shore.
Living by faith in Jesus above,
Trusting, confiding in His great love;
From all harm safe in His sheltering arm,
I’m living by faith and feel no alarm.
Faith. Faith is the recurring theme for me this week, and this song seems to frequent my thoughts. Remember, I love old hymns. However, there are times during church my mind tends to wander. My mouth is moving but my thoughts are far from what we are singing. But these past few weeks…these past few weeks I continue to hang on these words: “I care not today what the morrow may bring, If shadow or sunshine or rain, The Lord I know ruleth o’er everything, And all of my worries are vain.”
Do I believe that? My emotions would say I do not. The anxiety I often feel about life circumstances, unknowns or even what “might” happen keeps me awake at night. There are times I feel I have this worry thing beat and with a simple turn of events I’m back to trusting in myself, worrying in vain.
The past year has taken me on a journey of leaving Florida, settling in Texas all wrapped in the prospect of move to New Mexico. Growing roots has been challenging with the knowledge that our location could change with one finalized business deal. Literally one week before closing on a house we found out the deal had indeed been settled and my world seemed to be turned upside down…again. I told Stuart that it was a good thing it didn’t happen about 10 weeks later or I’m pretty sure I would have gone into early labor!
Granted, let’s keep all this in perspective: we had 2 great options on the table, both close to family and in good communities. I realize that. I also acknowledge there are much worse phone calls than, “Hey, get ready for your 5th move and 4th state in 5 ½ years.” But with my desire to create a home and with a baby on the way I have been beyond ready to “nest” as it’s called (That term makes me feel like a bird).
Yet here we are, finally with an answer. Months of worrying about the unknown and sleepless nights got me nowhere. This all sounds like a downer and really, it’s not! Other than backing out of the house and tweaking a few aspects of my business, we are literally already packed to go at any time.
BUT, I will say this has taken more faith than I want to exert. We were close to tying up many loose ends and here we are back at square one. And once again, anxiety over what will happen and all that has to fall into place in the coming months sets in again.
“I care not today what the morrow may bring…” Really? I think I actually do care what tomorrow brings. I want to sing that song and truly believe it but do I? When the rubber meets the road, do we really have faith and trust in Jesus above, trusting, confiding in his great love?
I want you to simmer on this for a week, as will I. How do you practice and experience faith? I would love to hear from you. Let’s meet back here, same time, same place next week.