Prone to Wander

Allyson Joy1040 views

I love old hymns. Growing up in a church that sang many old songs was not appreciated until later in life. They were not the new, contemporary songs. My time at Harding University is what caused me to really appreciate these hymns in a new way. Of course I enjoy many of the new ones. But there is nothing like standing the presence of 4000 college students singing songs like “It is Well” or “When We All Get to Heaven” in old school, 4-part, a cappella style harmony. It also did not hurt that probably 85% of the student body could sing-I mean really sing.

Now when I have the opportunity to go back to Sunset church of Christ in Lubbock, Texas I have difficulty making it through the service without crying or at the very least tearing up. There is something about singing ancient words that moves me. If you have never been to an a cappella service I would encourage you to experience it.

One of my favorite hymns is “Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing.” Incase you have never heard it before or need a refresher, here are the lyrics:

Come though fount of every blessing,

Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;

Streams of mercy, never ceasing,

Call for songs of loudest praise

Teach me some melodious sonnet,

Sung by flaming tongues above.

Praise the mount! I’m fixed upon it,

Mount of God’s unchanging love.

Here I raise my Ebenezer;

Hither by Thy help I’m come;

And I hope, by Thy good pleasure,

Safely to arrive at home.

Jesus sought me when a stranger,

Wandering from the fold of God;

He, to rescue me from danger,

Interposed His precious blood.

O to grace how great a debtor

Daily I’m constrained to be!

Let that grace now like a fetter,

Bind my wandering heart to Thee.

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,

Prone to leave the God I love;

Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,

Seal it for Thy courts above.

This song has a special place in my heart, in large part due to the reminder of Harding and one of my dearest friends who I experienced the 4 years of college life with.

Today this song is on my heart for one main reason: a battle. I cannot get the ending out of my head: “Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love.” As I stated many times before, I feel too much of the time I am stuck in Romans 7:15: “For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.”

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it.

Do you ever feel like you are watching yourself fall, like an “out of body experience” that you walk into a situation with your eyes wide open, a circumstance that can only end in disaster? And yet you keep walking thinking you can handle it, that everything will be okay. There are times in my life that I am desperately holding on, fighting Satan with everything I have. But unfortunately, there are seasons when I just open the door and invite Satan in for coffee.

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it.

I feel a bit like the church in Ephesus that John writes to in Revelation 2. Verses 3-5 are standing out the most, “You have persevered and have endured hardship for my name, and have not grown weary. Yet I hold this against you: you have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen!” I have forsaken my first love. I have forsaken Christ. Sin has consequences that affect people, yes, but the heart of the matter is that when I continue in sin I am forsaking my God.

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it.

So where does that leave us? Revelation 2:5 goes on to say this: “Repent and do the things you did at first.” Repent: “to feel or express sincere remorse for one’s wrongdoing or sin.” We can start by confessing our sin to God. Secondly, we can do the things we did at first. What were some of the things you did when you first came to know Christ? Remember how fresh and pure the relationship felt? I encourage you to take a few minutes to recall your story. Remember your first love.

“Here’s my heart, O, take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above.”

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